Every year, on Memorial Day, the Crossfit community does a workout called Murph. Murph is a hero workout named for Lt. Michael P. Murphy, a Navy Seal killed in action in 2005. You can learn more about Lt. Murphy here. The Murph workout is as follows:
1 mile run
300 air squats
1 mile run
If you’re anything like me, this sounds absolutely terrible. And painful. I have been doing Crossfit for 3.5 years, and I still wouldn’t consider myself ready to take on this workout. In fact, up until about two days before, I was completely sure that I would not be participating in this “fun” tradition. A few people at my box asked me if I would be there, bright and early on Monday morning, and I laughed and assured them I would be the last person they would see attempting Murph.
But something started changing in me. As I said before, this change began taking place literally a day or two before the workout. A small part, and I mean a very small part, of me wanted to do it. So i decided that I would perform half of the programmed workout. I would only run a half mile at the beginning and end, and then half the reps of the other three movements. Even this seemed so daunting and impossible. But I convinced myself that I could do it. I train consistently, and I pay some very smart and educated people to help me with my nutrition. I even texted a friend and made sure she would be there to suffer with me. I was ready. I would like to point out that the night before I had stress dreams all night about this.
Nonetheless, I showed up on Memorial Day ready to go. I boldly (not really) approached my coach and informed him of my decision to do Half Murph. I stood my ground and I knew that I would not let myself be persuaded to complete any more than half. I was only doing half. Spoiler Alert: I did the whole thing. You can’t see me, but I’m rolling my eyes as I type this. I joked the day of that my coach bullied me into it. But in all honesty, he made some good points. I was completely capable of doing the whole workout. And the workout is for a good cause. Honoring those that fight, and have fought for our freedom.
Even still, with much hesitation, I started that first 1 mile run. And didn’t stop until I had finished. All. Of. Murph. And let me tell you, it was as bad as I thought it was going to be. But I did it. Something that I never thought I would do. Something that I never thought I was capable of doing. I did it. Every hard, painful, terrible rep. I did them all. And I’ll probably do it again and try to improve my time. Because that’s what Crossfitters do.
I could have stayed home, but instead I went out and did the hard thing. The impossible thing. The unlikely thing. I didn’t settle for who I had been in the past. I didn’t settle for what I had done in the past. I pushed myself to try something new. To define myself differently. I did the dang thing. Never settle!